"I made a mistake"
"fuck you"
"fuck you"
"I love you"
"fuck me"
----- Big & Carrie
10/3/10
9/27/10
8/30/10
23
i'm just really scared to forget this when i'm old:
this year, at the age of 23, is the year where i had come across the most amount of self-realization and self-discovery. it's the year where i had most difficulties trying to figure out what i want, mostly in terms of career paths and relationships. it's the year of uncertainty, and it's the year of moulding myself into the person that i wanna become, or that i THINK i wanna become, because of course, i'm still uncertain.
it's the year where i try so hard to figure out if i like apples or oranges, if i wanna be a coffee drinker or a social smoker, if i wanna work in a downtown-core yet competitive environment or a friendly-relaxed yet boring environment, if i truly like the colour coral, or am i just in a phase, if i like white guys or asian guys, am i going to marry someone that doesn't speak my mother tongue, and how's that gonna work out in the future?
so many questions and i have the answers to none of the questions above...
I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WANT IN LIFE.
it's the year where i had to make up my mind about so many things because mainly, it's TIME. the year of 23 is the year of life where you make the decision to take a pick, and stick with it. it just might be the most important year of my life, no biggie.
anyone else as horrifyingly lost as i am?
just wanted to write it down so i don't forget 20 years from now, this is where it all begun...
8/1/10
7/31/10
7/24/10
7/18/10
it hits you when you least expect it.
in the shower, in the grocery store, in the elevator...
the emptiness of the aftermath hits you like a wave of unstoppable sadness.
am I trying to be something that I'm not?
我知道我玩儿得起.
但玩儿得起的人才不会想这么多.
sometimes we can't help but wonder: what do we want in life?
the answer is: we want everything.
that's why we'll never be truly happy, because we simply can't have everything.
其实根本没有那么复杂
什么事不要想那么多就好了
女人啊 脑子里不想点儿什么就不舒服.
自作自受.
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