23

i'm just really scared to forget this when i'm old:

this year, at the age of 23, is the year where i had come across the most amount of self-realization and self-discovery. it's the year where i had most difficulties trying to figure out what i want, mostly in terms of career paths and relationships. it's the year of uncertainty, and it's the year of moulding myself into the person that i wanna become, or that i THINK i wanna become, because of course, i'm still uncertain.

it's the year where i try so hard to figure out if i like apples or oranges, if i wanna be a coffee drinker or a social smoker, if i wanna work in a downtown-core yet competitive environment or a friendly-relaxed yet boring environment, if i truly like the colour coral, or am i just in a phase, if i like white guys or asian guys, am i going to marry someone that doesn't speak my mother tongue, and how's that gonna work out in the future?

so many questions and i have the answers to none of the questions above...

I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WANT IN LIFE.

it's the year where i had to make up my mind about so many things because mainly, it's TIME. the year of 23 is the year of life where you make the decision to take a pick, and stick with it. it just might be the most important year of my life, no biggie.

anyone else as horrifyingly lost as i am?

just wanted to write it down so i don't forget 20 years from now, this is where it all begun...